misdirected messages

Want to keep writing
till I don’t have to have to be
this heart broken to write
the willows aren’t the only thing weeping
the father son and holy spirit away on vacation
only thing to fill the holes inside me
are more loose women, fermented warm water,
and this damn Al Green record on repeat
pen me a sad song
a bib to hide the streaking tear stains
the explosion shook the cabin
sucked straight into the great beyond
The ribbon in the jet stream
Passed my rear view
As the high speed concrete draws closer

Always knew things would end this way
When I first saw her I was being reckless
Like seasoning a cinder block
before biting down on the inevitable
we weren’t meant for each other
this was just you talking to a stranger
on the way to your destination
Silly me
playing bus stop & kissing you with my eyes closed
you are not getting off with me just getting off
till you are turned off and I am offered my exit

I love you
probably always will love you
just wish you could see me in focus
or at least stop
repeating the same sentimental phrases
that have me believing
these filtered photograph memories
look anything like real life….

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“A Poet Tree”

incandescent spiders
the fire flies taste like mint
caramel bark
masks the saltiness
the sap is tears & sorrow
the trunk bends to find the light
leaves breaking the canopy
just to wave at the moonlight
it is far to warm in direct sunlight

more whisky cries the roots
more water begs the earth around it
the swaying is not just the winds song
it is drifting over the property lines

handsome from a distance
the branches seem to wither
under closer inspection
but the thorns keep
away the squirrels
who want to parasite the seeds

so much manure at the base of the growing
the smell is often too much to bare
but aren’t the green leafs glowing
the dew of late nights forming
dripping sentences & metaphors
on the dung beneath it
but the crap creeps in if you aren’t careful

have to know where to plant
where to grow
and where is the best place to survive.

“I just thought of a funny joke”

You better laugh
get in all the giggles you can
there will be mourning
much mourning
and sadness

You should guffaw
as often as you can

If fat people falling makes you titter
then put Crisco on your sidewalk
and get out a lawn chair

crack jokes
when no one else is listening
double over laughing
at how clever you are

be entertained
be jovial
be loving & charitable & friendly
be forgiving & grateful
but whatever you do…do it with a smile.

The devil hates your smiling
evil intends you to be miserable
before dying
we are all dying
either now or later
we are leaving here
isn’t it hilarious how much time
we spend trying to pretend we aren’t…

Summer School

the biggest problem with youth
is that it is in the sole possession of the young
Old people who have squandered their allotment
always know exactly what the young
should do with theirs
A pompous decrepit ass
with a executioner’s list of accomplishment

survival
accepting their own cowardice
going along to get along
bending to the will of their betters

will stand gaped legged
chest protruding
eyes lowered
before crowds of potential
and call it naive

“I know” says the father
“but I will out live you”
says the son
locked into orbit around
the only thing that matters
that is important
that can’t be packaged for consumption
or traded for slips of paper

to wake up further away from death
and closer to birth

but be wary
be careful
youth is a volatile element
and is hunted, devoured, and used for war

they are coming for you
they hate your shining eyes
they promise civility
till you threaten their institutions
then out comes the militia, the dynamite, the fear
as they stave off your insurrection and steal
the one thing
they can never have…again

be young
be carefree
be ambitious
never the fool but always the dreamer
it will be hard to tell the difference
as it always should be
this life is always leaving
youth is flickering
a dying light to follow
cherish it
pray for its lasting
and love like tomorrow may never arrive…

Jungle Love

Love shouldn’t feel like a prison sentence
thinking of escape is a clear sign
things are falling apart
If sex becomes a chore
run
quickly
dissatisfaction turns to resentment
and nothing is more prone to incivility
than animosity

in a cage the Gorilla becomes restless
flailing his arms and throwing shit
if he really could communicate
LET ME GO
would be his first sign language phrase

Love is not a Caged Gorilla
but if your lover throws shit at you
call the police
that motherfucker is crazy…

“rain dance”

I cursed at the wind, today
looked all of God & creation directly in the eye
and called Mother Nature a cunt
this close to my birthday
she brings snowflakes
fuck the clouds too
fucking assholes

a impudent speck,
weak, mortal, and questioning
had the audacity to talk to the infinite
with disdain

A fool’s errand is trying to bend
time to his will or make the sky do anything

Pity me my foolish nature.
Sky you have given and taken away when
you were supposed to
have brought me sunny days & thunder snow
when it was supposed to happen
I am just thankful to see your magic unfold
around me

but if it rains on my birthday,
just lets say it better not rain on my birthday
I would hate for there to be a problem…

I don’t like her, anymore…

there are far too many freckles
on her back for me to love her
when she sits in front of me in class
her hair always smells far too sweet

she doesn’t know my name
but her chin is too long so it doesn’t matter
and her butts too big,
her lips too succulent,
and she is far too hilariously funny

dudes don’t want funny chicks
boys egos can’t stand the competition

she thinks she is better than me
I think she is better at math than me
and I don’t like it

I dont like her.
I keep writing her name
on the inside of my Trapper Keeper
out of habit
did more push ups
then Chris at the bus stop
she pretended not to care
but good
I don’t like her anyway
sometimes I pray
just once
she would notice
how much I don’t like her.